Sometimes I wonder whatever that I am,
is it because it was always there in me and I have been only
discovering it, or have the people around been operating on me and
compelled me to invent these traits in me as seen today ?
I consciously try not to cater to the
expectations people would want to adorn me with, although with the
truest of their intentions. Or, maybe I do absorb some of their
aspirations about me into me, and then try pushing my horizons.
Once I have expanded my boundaries mentally, I
then have always tried to fill it with efforts and as it has
transpired hitherto, I have been able to expand myself and to fit
into those larger shoes, and thus my growth.
Is it that I am trying to position
myself in the image other people have envisaged of me – Maybe, yes!
But, only when I am convinced that it would be something congruent
and natural to what I have already embarked to do. It should simply align to
my evolving ethos.
It also happens that sometimes these
expectations might bog one down under their burden; While
I believe there is a mental threshold which is dynamic, and clips these external
aspirations in order to fit the true person I know I am.
This
post is not to criticize all the real well wishers I am fortunate to
be surrounded with, but only to project out the reality to myself, so
that although sweet I don't get deluded in an illusion. These
expectations serve as an incessant source of inspiration and for sure keep me
motivated.
All I
can assure to others, and more so to myself is that I will always
strive to get better, with no fixed targets, for, who knows even that
might become a dead end and halt my growth.
I will
flow, and keep expanding.
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