My Report Card 2008

2008 has been the most memorable year for me till date,as it was the most eventful one,professionally and personally....
Started off by feeling responsible,after i got into Keane...Irrespective of what the company was,what my job profile was,i felt really happy,the way i hadn't felt till then....A new kind of experience of having tryst with the corporates...
Just after that,I was sucked into Team STUDSAT,a student team building a pico satellite....A whole new set of people,events,tasks,working style...I liked it...I bet they liked me too...
Then came my first Quiz Mastering-"Test Your Common Science",which happened suddenly...A friend of mine was the catalyst who hosted it with me,we together put up a good show....The response was overwhelming,i was flattered, i realised a new dimension of my personality....
The second quarter gave me another surprise...This time the college fest...I was made the Head of the Tech committee...I didn't realise the amount of responsibilities i'd have to carry out...But, i realised them soon and delivered what was expected of me...I also hosted a Tech Quiz-The Opera of Grey Matter and the Tech Paper Presentation as a part of the fest...
Simultaneously,there was another "first time for me" happening...I was rehearsing for my first ever dance show...Few of my classmates who were just acquaintances became friends...I danced....Yes,but not actually dance,atleast a try...
Then,i got into SASKEN,one of the companies i really wanted to get into due to few reasons....First,its an Indian Company,second its a good place to work...
Finally,my 6th semester ended...I was conscious that i had drifted away from my academics...I didn't want people to point at me and tell that i had switched modes...So,i put in a bit more efforts towards the end and i had a jump of about 5% from my 5th semester marks....The best part was,i got the results on my birthday...
Till then, work had been very tight and demanding with extra working hours,less no.of lectures,more of gypsying(if u wanna call it so)...But then, i made two new friends...I hope they're gonna come a long way with me in my life...Had real good times and times i wanna forget with them.....
The third quarter ended with the Best Team Award for team STUDSAT(satellite team) in The International Astronautical conference,Scotland....I'm one of the team members....While this was going on i was hosting An interesting competition called THINK TANK in college...
Then,i got into a new stream of thinking by indulging myself into Open Source Software and the Free Software Movement...Its Still going on...It is something which i'm really proud to be a part of...Cos,it works on principles and how you live wth those ...
This was followed by Our Paper,which i presented at an International conference organised by ISRO in Chennai,which won the Best Paper award...And subsequently i was awarded the Best Student Award from ISTE(not related to STUDSAT)....
Now, i'm ending my year with my 7th semester exams...I've given a decent and steady performance in these exams also....
I had loads of fun by the way...Another pleasant surprise of 2008 was 7 new albums from ARR and one from Bryan Adams.....It was like icing on choco cake to me....I Hope that 2009 is much better...
And i wish you all a happy and gratifying 2009...

A Baby's day out with my belt

Yup... Back after a long time. I had had time to blog but nothing interesting to say. Then i started thinking,why didn't i have much to say. It is because i'm not interacting with many people as i would do before. Lesser the no.of people you meet,fewer are the interesting things happening around you. It is actually enlightening(to some extent) and fun to see people in different situations.

But,today something really cute happened while i was in bus. I was standin near a seat,where a toddler was on his dad's lap. He started to play around with my belt which was hanging out of the loop,it was hilarious... The kid just held on to the belt for long time,meddling with it. I was having fun with that kid,unaware of the people around me. We both-the kid and myself didn't bother about the people around,but i think his dad felt slighty embarassed... Then i had to get down,and the baby's face had a late realisation that his ad hoc toy was gone.

Are we certain of the path we've tread on?

Sometimes i wonder, what if there is a fundamental flaw in our understanding of everything....What if our basic perception of things is incorrect. For instance, what if the value given to 'zero' is wrong,as every other creation by us is directly or indirectly dependent on it everything else will be flawed. Or what if our perception of infinity is wrong....And many such questions......
What if we have been surviving on a masked flaw,making us believe everything is accurate. I know that different things have converged many a times to prove that we are right. But what if even this has been a ratification of this flaw.

Its just a thought which regularly keeps crossing my mind,thats all. It may sound absurd,but it is not. We could have gone wrong in few places,which we are not cognitive about...

ARR towards Golden globe -:)

Congrats AR.....
A R Rahman has been nominated for Best Original Score for "Slumdog Millionaire" at the Golden Globes.....
We are proud to share our lifetimes with that of a legend like you AR.....

A temporary oblivion....Courtesy:::"Exams"::: and Freedom in a new perspective :)

I was just thinking, from the past few days there has been little or no contact with you people, with whom i used to interact for substantial amount of time....
The reason, actually not a worth one---EXAMS....It's sad my friends....Imagine our rapport after we are away and not together.....
And another thing....Few of you even turned down the chance of meeting Eben Moglen, professor of law and legal history at Columbia University, and also the founder, Director-Counsel and Chairman of Software Freedom Law Center, whose client list includes numerous pro bono clients, such as the Free Software Movement.....I tell you-You've missed a lot !!!
It was awesome to hear him talk and i was lucky enough to get a personal introduction to him and also to ask him a few questions.
Now, my motive of working on and propagating the free softwares has got clearer...The ultimate goal at every stage of this phenomenon is to enhance and propagate freedom....Freedom of thought,Freedom to share and create....
It also aims at bridging the economic gap between a few money minters(who got rich at the cost of our freedom) and the rest of the world....

All the World's a Stage....You got it right,it is Shakespeare....

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players;
They have their exits and their entrances,
And one man in his time plays many parts,
His acts being seven ages. At first, the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms.
Then the whining schoolboy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school. And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad
Made to his mistress' eyebrow. Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths and bearded like the pard,
Jealous in honor, sudden and quick in quarrel,
Seeking the bubble reputation
Even in the cannon's mouth. And then the justice,
In fair round belly with good capon lined,
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut,
Full of wise saws and modern instances;
And so he plays his part. The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slippered pantaloon,
With spectacles on nose and pouch on side;
His youthful hose, well saved, a world too wide
For his shrunk shank, and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound. Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything.

You are the protagonist !!! You are at the centroid !!!

Who according to YOU is the protagonist in your life???
It is obviously -YOU..... YOU are the centre of the universe...All events are revolving around YOU...
YOU are a part of the cause, so YOU will have to bear a portion of the effect....World to YOU is just a function of your perception...Consequentially, there is nothing like- good or bad, happy or sad, right or wrong- everything is relative,nothing is and can be absolute...But, YOU have the ability to change how things affect YOU...
And if YOU are talking about your contribution to the world, don't YOU feel YOU are the most special person in this world??? If YOU are not feeling so,please.... YOU need to, cos it is what YOU are........And what will the world be without it's special person...
So, savor every moment YOU've got....Make each and every moment the best it could have become....
And YOU need to realise- The best thing about the world is YOU.....

Exams are here....But i can't stop blogging!!!

Check out these illusions..........Got hold of these after long time.....Used to have hard copies of these while in school....

We have passed the litmus test again !!!!

Time and again certain sectors of our system fails....This has led to breaches, which cause enormous devastations, at all levels...Lives are taken,an air of hostility becomes prominent, the entire country is thrown numb...This time again the security cover at thresholds has let us down.....
We are, i beleive witnessing the peak of a demonic, at the same time moronic atrocity of another sector of the mankind who proudly call themselves the propagators of terror....But, they themselves would not have understood the true motive of their actions...These are souls Instigated by extremism, blinded by futile-courage and sacrifice, perpetuating poison within themselves and their brethren and trying to accomplish a formless goal...
A battle of this kind is really hard to fight...You do not know who your enemies are until they say so...After that, whatever you do is just the process of healing.....
Now, due to negligence of the officers at the rudimentary levels the entire society is affected...In the subsequent process of recovery, we've lost many great selfless men who have fought for our sake...
It is in times like these we get to know the true colors of our politicians...Even now there has been no solidarity between them,in atleast showing compassion...They are trying to maneuver this issue as they would have done to any other issue, to favor their parties....
But the winners of this ghastly battle have been-We the people of India ...There has been overwhelming support for the victims of this incident from every corner of India...We have led our leaders to follow us in a path of mutual harmony,self support and solidarity....

PRAY FOR THE UNLUCKY VICTIMS AND HAIL THE HEROES OF THIS HOUR.........
JAI HIND......

Still a distant dream....

Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high
Where knowledge is free
Where the world has not been broken up into fragments
By narrow domestic walls
Where words come out from the depth of truth
Where tireless striving stretches its arms towards perfection
Where the clear stream of reason has not lost its way
Into the dreary desert sand of dead habit
Where the mind is led forward by thee
Into ever-widening thought and action
Into that heaven of freedom, my Father, let my country awake

Rabindranath Tagore

When will we pay obituary to irresponsibility....

I feel infuriated,reckless,agitated,stirred from within. I witnessed the most horrifying sight in my life. An old woman was run over by a car,right in front of eyes... It was heart wrenching...It is so hard,i felt a jolt and grew numb. After years i started crying, on the road.
It wasn't the mistake of the car driver,the old woman was trying to cross an expressway and had slipped and fallen on the road.But, the driver didn't even stop and check what had happened,the driver slowed down,and after seeing the crowd flew away.
It wasn't the woman's fault either,as there is no provision to cross these roads. No subways,sky walks or zebra crossings monitored by a signal or traffic police.

These roads and systems are designed and implemented by morons with no foresight.You don't require foresight,just a fraction of common sense and responsibility would have averted many incidents of this kind.

The worst part of all this for me is that, i had to be a silent spectator....This mishap happened within 2 seconds....I had a myriad of emotions,thoughts and then my mind got blank and i started to cry...

But, later i got angry thinking of cause for incidents like these...I pray that she survives....

Consistent Fluctuations !!!

I try to be consistent consistently,but it goes the other way round,i'm consistently fluctuating....I consciously try to be fickle minded on a few issues,but the harder i try,i get averted from my motive...When i try to get conscious of getting consistent,i lose it out and never deliver my best...
Its like this line i heard in Dil Chahta Hai-"Try to grab sand in your fist,...the harder you try, the lesser you hold....."
Nowadays, i've left it all to my instincts and intuitions. They are helping me out.....

Can it get bigger and better???

Two veterans up to give their best shot...

Both these projects are already being speculated to be the greatest ventures movie ever in India.

Rajni has tied up with director Shankar,one of the splendid directors in the industry. This project has been the dream project of Shankar,after repeated approaches to various actors and production houses,now it is the Superstar in it. Initially titled- Robot,now it is being called Enthiran in tamil which means the same.

Now talking about the other icon-Kamal,he is doing a period movie which can be compared to Apocalypto. He is directing it,supposed to be again a radical movie that has not been thought of in India.

Now,how do these interest me apart from these two legends. It is another legend- A R Rahman, who is composing the music for both these movies... Both these will definitely be benchmarks for future music composers.

By the way,both are projects with budget more than Rs.120 crores as if for now,realising in late 2009 or 2010. So i just can't wait for these two,like the many millions.

Interest is directly proportional to obscurity......

When is a thing interesting?
I believe that interest level is a term which cannot be constant. It's attribute is to keep deteriorating. It has to come down. You can never be interested in a particular thing for a long time. You can, if it remains obscure to you forever.
I claim that, this is the same when you consider interacting with people. You can't always be interseted in a person,look at him or her in awe forever. So to keep relationships alive we need to reinvent ourselves. We need to grow,get better,renew ourselves,so that your counterpart(could be your friend,lover,spouse...) remains attached to you. If you bore them,and if no obligations are in place you ll lose them subsequently.

No Purpose...No need to exist...

Actions without purpose,without any consequences,which create only nuisance. Most of our population is engrossed in pursuing deeds like these. I really wonder,as to how people can dedicate their energy,time,resources to things like these.
I was in the middle of a swarm of vehicles carrying supposedly the activists of a major political party. I'm damn sure that majority of these people would not have the slightest clue of the reason for which they are gathering.
Forget about wasting their energy over nuisance like this,they don't realise the extent of trouble and ruckus they are creating to other relatively useful souls around them.
I've been trying to analyse as to what is the cause for such actions of these people- i end up reaching the same reason which is the root cause for so many other problems faced by Indians- illiteracy,as a consequence lack of realisation of their responsibilities,a careless attitude towards everything.
I'm again sure that until and unless we tackle this problem,India will always keep dreaming of becoming a developed country and of achieving what it is deserves...

We've rocked Chennai !!!!

Both our subsystem papers have won the BEST PAPER AWARD in different categories at ESSTA-2008,an International Space Conference........
Congratulations to TEAM STUDSAT.......
Dr. Kasturirangan (Former ISRO Director) presented us the awards....

Hospitable to us but hostile to their own -:(

A barricade in the bus to separate boys from girls....Different classrooms for boys and girls....A student was sent back to the room from the hostel entrance,for he was wearing a cargos pant and another for wearing a shirt with two breast pockets...
A finger print scanner at the entrance of hostel to identify them and restrict them from leaving hostel unnecessarily....
If you wanna come back early from class to hostel,you are expected to bring a permission letter from dean...
No cell phones in campus(really no cell phones!!!!), 5 BSNL lines are placed at the reception in booths,it is open only2 and a half hours a day,except on weekends....
This is what poor peers of ours are being put through at Satyabhama College...

Contemporary Buddha

Have a look at him....

The saga continues ...........

Started of the day with a rehearsal of my presentation at 7,after a cold water bath at 6... Then all of us moved out of hostel to hog... The menu was sophisticated but the breakfast could not have got simpler and unexciting...
After registrations,we had the biggest acknowledgment for registering in the conference- a huge travel bag!!!
Then,it seriously got better, we were in front of Dr.Madhavan Nair-the man of the hour,after launching Chandrayaan-1 and its successful entry into the 100 km lunar orbit...
The inauguration ceremony was overwhelmingly filled with big names in space technology. We also happened to listen to an obscure speech by Satyabhama's Chancellor,ignoring his mediocre English.
Then came an inspiring and motivating talk by Dr.Madhavan Nair. At times like these,after seeing people like him and his team is that i really begin to question the path i've chosen for myself...
Then came our presentation....This must have the first time that i didn't commit any faux pas in my presentation...I always do one or the other inappropriate thing...It was an almost a perfect shot...We received lot of appreciation for our work and the presentation... -:)

Almost like a baby's day out !!!!!!!!!

This must have been the first time, i have had a one on one encounter with what can be called peak of absurdity.I'm at Sathyabhama University,Chennai preparing to give a presentation of our team's paper....
But,i have been overwhelmed by the ridiculous things happening around me...First of all,we got into a room which is very spacious...The bathroom is as big as the room provided to me in IIT,Madras...
Next,just listen, this is the first time i've seen such atrocity anywhere...There are no power plug points in the room...When asked why,they say students are not allowed to use cell phones,so no plug points...I know it can't get more atrocious than this..
And,girls are not supposed to mingle with boys !!!! Imagine us, in Bangalore,it is heaven for us....
But, after seeing all this, i was consoled by a dinner with heaps of chicken...(I'm lovin it!!!)
Anyways,looking forward to my presentation tomorrow....

V for Void and Vacuum

At times i feel that i'm being pushed into Vacuum....As if my entire existence is becoming Void.....I just can't explain as to why i feel that way....Obscurity will be at its peak.....Cynicism surfaces up in my perception of the world around me....I refuse to trust anybody around me....
Don't panic it is just impulsive...And it usually happens when i'm both mentally and physically exhausted....I again get back with more enthusiasm than before.....

My day---- fatigue..stress...a bond movie and ended with loads of fun

I really don't know as to why i'm put through days like these where nothing goes as it should...I'm exposed to a diaspora of events which trigger torrents of feelings and situations in a single day....
First of all,I'm fed up of trying to atone my actions...I hadn't realised these things to turn out like this, but it is very frustrating...
Over this the fatigue,courtesy a viral fever and a persistent cold....
Combine these two and it is the perfect melancholy....As a consequence,I was not able to keep up my commitments,including my record submission and more importantly i could not meet two of my tribe members( check out the post "Small tribe of mavericks").
Later in the evening, seeking some relief, me and my group reached a theatre to catch the latest Bond flick,as planned earlier....That i guess made me detach from my entire day's hang over...The movie wasn't a masterpiece of sorts,but it was able to keep my mind free from all the things left behind me...
Then,it was my friends' turn to immerse me in a small sea of joy...We had good fun on our way back home...
Now, i'm into the next day,without taking a break...Hope today is not as demanding as yesterday...It is not fear or disinterest...It is just that too much is too bad and nowadays i have got a blessing of some sort i guess-i'm always getting more than what i aspire for...

~^~^~^~^~^~Small tribe of Mavericks~^~^~^~^~^~

I had this thought in my head that, people around me think quite the opposite to whatever i think. No one's thoughts were in sync with those of mine. There wasn't anyone who could understand my way of thinking,no one who could anticipate my reactions,no one to judge me credibly. But,by now i know atleast three people whom i'd call like not just minded with me but more than that. I see reflections of each other when i'm with them. It makes me happy to get to know and interact with such people. Calling us friends does no justice to our perception of each other. We are personified portions of each others' personalities. It makes me feel proud and humbled at the same time,that we belong to this small tribe of mavericks.

Lost and recovering !!!

While talking to one of my friends,i just realised that i hadn't been dedicating substantial amount of time to few of my interests, which are really close to me. I just realised that it had been quite some time that i had read my favourite literary works from Kannada- the vachanas. I used to be obsessed with these literary masterpieces. Now,i've lost the touch of using them as quotes. I used to use them appropriately while in converstations. I miss them now. I must get back to them,it would be really nice for me to read them and use them,you ll enjoy the way i use them.
Also i've been trying to plan and watch a play at Ranga Shankara. I should soon do it,i would love watching it.

Neither Right nor wrong !!!

Do you think Bin Laden masterminded the 9/11 attacks thinking that it was a crime and that it was something against his conscience. I think- no,not at all...
Things are different when we consider different things. Same is the case with perception of events and occurrences happening in the world around us. We should do what we feel is right. It's you who should feel complacent about what you are doing. It should not be a function of others' reactions or expectations. Self reliance and self satisfaction should be the light houses guiding the ship housing your actions. And what to do about people,how to treat and react to them???
I follow this: I do to you,what you do to me.

I'll be Back !!!

After facing a lot of turmoil and after being lost,i think i have put myself on the road to recovery...I have done the needful after having a rendezvous with a shocking surprise in store for me in future...

Voice from the heart...It does reach your heart :)

I've been hearing bits and pieces of the magic created by these vocal cords...Not only me, anyone who listens to his voice will feel a stir within them..The sound of his voice just churns out emotions which are ethnic Indian....
I was left astounded by his music(he even composes his music)...Amazing use of guitar,ethnic drums with a touch of rock....Its just superb....
Another important thing is,he has tracks in Hindi,but the there are few in Kannada also...Its awesome to hear him in Kannada with pretty interesting lyrics,again most of it by him...
Amazing !!!! The rustic feel to his voice somewhere invokes your roots,the Indian feel,its quite unbelievable that a voice can do all this...
RAGHU DIXIT is the man,he's got a bright future...It will take him to places and hope he does carry this same touch with him...
Albums:
Raghu.dixit(Vishal Shekhar label)
Psycho(Kannada)

More time together...better rapport....best throughput

One of my teammates said ,the most efficient time spent amongst us-the team had been the past 2 days...We have been spending substantial amount of time at all slots of the day,giving form to our work as a Paper,which we'll be presenting in a National Conference on Space Technology.
It is actually anomalous for me atleast to work overnight and deliver my best...But when you are in a team,you tend to absorb the attributes of the team,because you feel that you are a part of the team and you need to cope up with others...
The time we've been spending brainstorming, formulating thoughts,chilling out at canteens and coffee shops at bizarre times is actually doing good for the project,for we are now understanding each other in a better way,rapport between us is deepening.Consequentially,the quality of work emanating from us is at its current best....I'm glad we are functioning this way...

I didn't know my mind was being read !!!!

There's nothing of any importance in life-except how well you do your work.Nothing.....Only that...Whatever else you are,will come from that..It's the only measure of human value...(Atlas Shrugged)
When i was reading these lines, it was as if someone had already read my mind and put it into words.It's the best feeling you can have when you are reading someone's work,and you feel that the person has had a peep into your head and has stolen your thoughts...Its just superb,when you see that what you are thinking has already been thought,and those thoughts have been realised in the form of words,music,movies,....
It actually brings two varieties of feelings-one is a sense of happiness,for another successful person has had the same thoughts as yours.And the other being,if i was existent before them,they would have been thinking of me as i'm thinking of them now....Anyways,I'm still proud that at times i share my thoughts with many great minds like-Ayn Rand(objectivism),Sigmund Freud(sleep and dreams),Bryan Adams(love and romance),Dr.Kalam(certain visions),and many more...

Peel off the mask !!!

When you succeed,usually it will be your contemporaries who do not want to see you succeed in your ambitions. You need have no fear of those who are older or younger than yourself,they know you will never be their rival... (Excerpt from a Jeffrey Archer book)
This may seem as if i'm accusing a few of you.But its just a fact which our conscious mind doesn't want to endorse. Just think, there is one particular thing a human mind creates against its fellow beings which initially drives it to do better. But after few tries,the mind gives up its efforts,and tries to hamper the peer's efforts. This is a subtle and slightly personal layer within you and me-jealousy. Feeling jealous is perfectly normal.
I know you may not be jealous of me, or probably you are. But, don't say that you are not jealous of atleast one of your peers for atleast one or the other reason. This is a natural tendency,its cool up to a certain extent,beyond that,its bad for the both involved.
I've seen the people face extremes of actions and counteractions from people who are envious. Starting from pranks to manipulated scams to even much beyond these.

It is necessary to have a driving force within you,even if it is negative. But that negativity shouldn't be trespassing the limits of humane ethics...

The Emperor is back with Yuvvraaj

I was confident that the songs of Yuvvraaj would be good...ARR is in real good from for this year,moreover its the 3rd time Ghai and ARR have come together after Taal and partially for Kisna...
Yuvvraaj starts off with one of Beethoven's Symphony,with lines of arrogance by Salman..
Then there's a signature song for Yuvvraaj-Tu Meri Dost Hai,again melody marries good lyrics for this song...It just has this magic which makes your brain to cling on to it from the very first time....Amazing violin,chorus,vocals and a 30 seconds of ARR himself like icing on the cake...
Then there are 7 more tracks,each penetrates your head deeper and deeper,as you go on listening to them...One distinct feature of this album is,there is a controlled chaos in most of the songs,with a consistent soothing effect having an impact subtly on you...
I guess the leads in the movie are violinists,because the violin pieces in all songs are sublimely divine...The album is 45 minutes of a surge of various emotions within you.....
"ARR-The emperor is back with Yuvvraaj"

Music....Its not just sound.......

Music is the bridge between different reservoirs of thoughts;

Music is the language of the unspoken;

Music conveys the inconceivable;

Music makes you immerse in yourself;

Music takes you closer to the core of the rest;

Music relieves you from everything you wanted to get rid of;

Music makes you realise who is what to you;

Music reveals to you the power of human creation ;

Music takes you closer to things you've always wanted to be one with;
Music lets your body be conscious of its own presence;

Music is a lot like love: inexplicable and sublime;

Music heals your mind in the quickest possible way;

Music transfers its wonderful attributes to you;

Music is the reason for dance to exist;
Music helps you conduct your life as an orchestra;

Music is that inexplicable force which mellows down the chaos inside;

Music is that quality humanity has been attributing to God;

Music is the greatest divine invention of man to experience intervals of Godliness!

-:)" Savour your sleep" -:)

The greatest gift bestowed on us is the ability to create things. But how could this be possible without rigorous thoughts clashing in the courts of our heads. And the most ideal time to let your thoughts think the unthinkable is while you are asleep. This is the time when your brain is being rejuvenated with a dose of glycogen, during this process the neurons are the most efficient. You can come up with the most bizarre ideas,out of the box solutions,create the weirdest things,go to the most unbelievable of places, all this and lots more, courtesy- YOUR BRAIN Riding to destination SLEEP.
The process of transcending from this chaotic world to another world,which is limited just by the power of your thoughts, and then to another level where you immerse yourself in an eternal ocean of serenity. Isn't it amazing!
People believe that the best choices and solutions come while in sleep,as your subconscious mind which is immune to the world outside comes into play. There are proven instances with statistics that the decisions made in subconscious mind have been the most fulfilling and happy to the people involved.
I've come up with solutions of various sorts while asleep. One such weird instance is about a bug in a program i had written.I wasn't able to debug it for long time. But one night during sleep i must have been thinking about it,then i woke up with the solution ,i had debugged it in my sleep!

Dishum dishum..Bang bang....

After a day of starvation yesterday, i came home. No one was at home,they've left me alone and gone to Chennai. I was looking for the newspaper,there it was just 3 steps away from me,lying on the floor. I walked towards it and lifted it up. Then suddenly i felt a teeth crushing blow on the left side of my forehead, i could feel this impact even under my right jaw. It was exasperating. The blow had just missed the cartilage of my nose and the bones of my teeth. Then,I was trying to feel if some warm liquid was flowing down my face,thankfully nothing. But the pain was spreading.
I had banged into the edge of the wall after lifting the paper. I was trying to see if i was alright. Then i came to the mirror and stood for 30 seconds observing my forehead,at the end of it i started smiling at myself. I looked like Tom with a bump on his head,after a getting a blow from Jerry's pan.
Later,i just placed an ice cube and tied a hankie around it,then went into a deep sleep to escape the pain.

As pure as snow :-)

I feel blissfully happy when i see people who are not dubious. Whatever their intentions are,those are clearly shown on their faces. It is so hard for them to hide things. They believe that they've hidden something,but even that thought of theirs is made obvious if you just look into their eyes. It's just that they're so naive and pure . This makes them transparent and the companionship of such a person is the best gift you could get in this world of hypocrites.
But such people are more vulnerable to the wicked manipulations of the society. I feel a sense of fear and insecurity for them.
Fortunately,i've been lucky enough to know one such person intimately.I tend to be very honest to this person,otherwise the feeling of guilt is just unbearable. It's actually weird for another person to have some substantial impact on you at the behavioral level...That too,on an adamant one like me...

Everything is a thought at first>>>>>

Just look around you...You may see various things,but i see the ideas and the thought process behind those things...
Ideas conceived by one mind, made better by more minds and perpetuated by many more minds grow from a speck to something stupendous,ground breaking....Just imagine how much of thinking must have been done to come with even the most simplest of things we use.So,the value and quality of a product is directly proportional to the efforts put in as thoughts primarily...
Have you ever wondered what was your first hint of existence on this earth,it was actually a common thought in two minds who conceived you....So,even we were first just a thought....
So,don't just look at things,try to see beyond them, you'll feel gratified just by their presence...

Tears that tear you apart....

I don't know what should be said of the tears that flow down the eyes. It is such a simple but influential tool gifted to people.
I decided that i would not cry when i was in my 9th Std...I haven't cried, more specifically sobbed since then...There have been lots of instances where in my eyes have been filled with tears,few of which for my own sake,most of it has been for my near and dear ones.Tears are an effective tool to a sigh of relief,but these tears have instigated me to come up with solutions which i hadn't thought of.I feel a heart wrench when i see tears flow down from others' eyes.It is a weird feeling, of sharing the pain...Sometimes i don't realise the magnitude of a situation until tears are shed...
I really don't agree with the notion that it is not manly to cry...I feel a strong urge to cry at times,but only to certain people...I don't know if these people can see through me or what,but i definitely feel like resting my head on their shoulders and cry,silently...I don't do it every time ,this makes me weaker from within...I think it has already done the damage...
Tears are the ticket to relief and solutions to our problems...It makes you realise who are the people caring for you,it increases the trust level and bonding between our spirits...
When people cry to me,i find it really hard to take it...I'm bad at consoling,so it gets worse...But i try to soak up as much pain as possible...
Your tears tear me apart...

Quantum of Solace!!!!!!!

Solitude- this is one word which brings a quantum of solace to me. People in general,are the most honest to themselves when alone. We try to change our behavior either to attract or repel a person's attention. The time when you are immersed in solitude, you can look at yourself as a third person. In this process of introspection, you'll see another you standing out of you and talking to you, criticizing you, admiring you,counseling you, giving solutions to your problems. One thing which most of us don't really do is self contemplation in solitude. It is very important so that you understand yourself,so that you can in turn make people realise who you are,what they should expect or not expect from you.
Solitude.....you know is entirely different from loneliness. In solitude you don't seek for a companion,you have yourself as one. Whereas,when you are lonely,you seek for people while doing so,you miss out the best part of you,which seldom surfaces up. You need to know him and understand him. The extent of clear mindedness you get after you've interacted with this person is just immense,you are more confident,composed and more than anything a happier person.

Terror can follow no religion

People of one particular religion being targeted for the act of terror is highly unfortunate and inappropriate. Terror is against mankind, its against humanity, it is blind and doesn't see the reality. People who propagate terror and believe that it can get them what they want are definitely inhuman. So ,how could people who perpetuate such inhumanity belong to any religion. No religion asks people to get what they want by force, none of the religions promote violence. So, if one particular religion is being accused of terrorism it is really a narrow and ignorant point of view.
But,this dogma has been successfully instilled in the minds of people by one of the so called "super powers", which has projected this religion in the realm of terror, and the world is believing it. It really hurts me when our fellow brethren in society are being looked at in this paradigm.
So, let us not follow the herd, let us follow the path of reason and truth.

It was my first time doing it...............

I was just thrilled to do it for the first time.Being the first time for the both of us,me and my partner were shivering in our turns of the job. It was a new kind of an experience altogether.Although a delayed attempt, after having the ability to do it for a long time. But today, after we both did it together, we felt a long standing urge mellow down.When there were silver like globules, at the tip of the tool in our hands, it was like magic. The way things just fused together to become one. It was just awesome. I'm happy that i did it atleast now. Better late than never. This was my first hand experience of soldering my own circuit...

This one's for you............

"If your sacrifice is the price of getting together, then i'll be damned if i want to live on the same earth with any human beings! If the rest of them can survive only by destroying us, then why should we wish them to survive? Nothing can make self-immolation proper. Nothing can give them the right to turn men into sacrificial animals. Nothing can make it moral to destroy the best. One can't be punished for being good. One can't be penalized for ability. If that is right, then we'd better start slaughtering one another, because there isn't any right at all in the world!"
............Atlas Shrugged,by Ayn Rand

Perseverance is the synonym to the name"Mahatma"

Actually, if there is one thing that has impressed me more than anything else about Gandhiji, is his perseverance. Apart from his radical ideals and down-to-the earth principles, the amount of persistence with which he followed them only made him the "Mahatma".

I'm the only one of my kind :)

I don't really understand why most people try to pretend as if they are not themselves, as if they are unhappy about being themselves. People are hesitant to speak the truth about themselves to other people and ironically even to themselves.
Now,talking about myself,I understand where i stand in relation to others, what my +'s are and what my drawbacks are. I'm conscious about the fact that I'm the best in many of the things i do. So, there's no point in disregarding your own skills.If you yourself don't know what you are good at,then how do you expect some other soul around you to reveal it to you(Such things happen only in movies, if at all it happens in real life,it'll be made into a movie sooner or later).
So, the antidote is,"Be proud of who you are, what you are, what you do...".But, you know, there will be few infidels around you, who'll say that you are being egoistic...But this"ego" is what makes us humans...Animals don't realise what they are,if they should be proud or embarrassed of being themselves...
But,only being proud of what you are today will do no good...We are the only "autonomous and adaptable products" in the "market of the society"....You need to survive the competition.But,fortunately or unfortunately there are no product analysts to monitor what can be appended to you, to make you a "successful brand"...So, see to it that you are not lost like a weed in rain,hang on to not something,but everything you want, don't just survive, you need to flourish like..................

Didn't you get the point-Not like anybody else, but just you.....

The hurdle is in our heads !!!!

I've been thinkin a lot over the various things we are lagging behind at.Unfortunately those things are ubiquitous and many. A little bit of introspection and a careful observation of the fellow beings revealed an obnoxious undercurrent around and within us,which is subtle but has profound impact on our efforts and results,subsequently on our country.
What i've realised as the fundamental problem is that, most of us are lazy.You may agree and even say that its a common and well proven reason of which each one of us are aware of.But, i'm not talkin of the physical laziness,it's about the reluctancy in putting efforts to churn out newer and radical ideas.
I feel our laziness starts at the thinking level, we are always for something conventional,something which has been "tried and tested(most of the times obsolete)". We are lazy to innovate,not that we won't innovate,but we won't do it ourselves.So, the glitch is in our heads primarily.Once we overcome the pleasure of security by the power of thoughts,we can sing:"A new..... day..... has............. come",like Celine Dione.

Listen, you won't forget it !!

After a long time something non A R Rahman or non bryan adams has made me listen to with all my senses in unison....
This time its a Tamil album " Vaaranam Aayiram", composer Harris Jayaraj,but i'd say the credit to such superb music and amazing lyrics should go to the director Gowtham Menon,whose work i've been following from the very start. He's one of India's best contemporary movie makers, who understands the importance of an essential point, which many others are unaware of- A perfect balance between a good script and to supplement it with the best and appropriate technology.
These songs just penetrate you , take you to a different level. My favorite is a song called "Mundhinam", which translates to "yesterday". Its the cutest song i've heard in recent times.... It starts of with mushy words from the guy to the gal....Listen to it on this link....

http://www.musicplug.in/multiple_song_flashplayer.php?songid=50515&br=medium&id=6102&page=movies

I didn't write this !!! But if i had,it would hav been the same

Free is all you gotta be
Dream dreams no one else can see
Sometimes you wanna run away
But you never know what might be comin' round your way
Ya ya ya

On a day like today
The whole world could change
The sun's gonna shine
Shine thru the rain
On a day like today
You never wanna see the sun go down
You never wanna see the sun go down

Back to Basics

Today, i realised that the best and simplest solution to most of my problems were to stick to my basic principles. I hadn't been aware for quite sometime that i had drifted far from my principles.
At one point of time today,when i thought of this ,i realised what i had not been doing.It's as simple as that.Now things seem to get better.But lot of repair work is to be done.

Hurry Porter and His Basic Instinct...

He had carried two light loads only, and had demanded 20 bucks. The luggage owner stretched a 10 rupee note, the porter just showed his back and walked away. He came back, "What will i get with this? A coffee costs 8 bucks, we had settled for 10 bucks each, now you pay me for only 1 luggage. I don't want even this , take it back,if you wanna make a fortune with my money, take this money and my good wishes, which i ll give you for free. I've lost so much,and this ain't a thing for me."
I was standing beside as a silent spectator, startled,after hearing this man speak. You can call this ego, but i call it the basis of human nature, a basic instinct,which helps us retain our integrity. Even though he survives mainly on these luggage tips, he didn't mind to walk away.
Hats off!!!

A day on a sine wave

Oh my God !!!

Today was one such day, which in reminiscence would be a day i'll remember for everything that happened.
Started off with a disappointment.The person I was eagerly waiting for was late,so missed our daybreak meet-up.

And today,I was supposed to have conducted an event- THE THINK TANK,which eventually got scrapped for the second time. I felt like hell then. Then another jolt just struck me,this time it was my college principal and director, they were almost harassing us.They said suddenly that they wouldn't approve our project. After begging for an entire day, with constant counseling and consolation from her, i got it done with my teammate.We convinced them to join us tomorrow for the big party.

And,at the end of the day,just a plain,simple cool drink with that pleasant person made the trauma of the entire day vanish. I don't know what to say-but.........
I feel double myself,when with her :)

It's not me in the mirror !!!

Nowadays, i'm actually getting away from myself. Maybe even before a few months ,i could anticipate my own reactions to all situations. But now, it's getting worse. I do not know what i expect from people,and what people expect from me.I behave like i have never behaved before. I'm messed up from within. I don't know when it all started, but i'm unable to get out of it. I can't believe what i've said and done to few people. I never wanted to be a hypocrite, but i'm contradicting myself with every move of mine.

Bloggers careful!!

Yup...The wait is over... I've always had this brainstorming happening often and i never used to share it with another soul..Now brace yourself, because you are going  to face it all...I can now unleash myself onto you people...